I chose to have a homebirth with my daughter. It was not a decision made lightly just because I cloth diaper or breastfeed. the utmost importance to me was my son's emotional well being. Yep. its true. I chose to homebirth because of Jzilla. This boy has been through amazing changes in his 3 year old life. he was born in los angeles. his daddy left for iraq when he was 8 days old. mama's milk dried up and he starved while feeling lethargic and sick. eventually back to the breast he went. 4 months later he was driven on a 14 hour drive to colorado where he got to know his dad for the first time. then a few months later, went back to los angeles while dad got some training. a little bit after his first birthday we moved back to colorado a month in an extended stay, then on to a uhaul to north carolina. learned to walk, and turned two before we were plucked off again to alaska a few weeks after his second birthday. spent 3 weeks in a hotel before his dad deployed again... this time to afghanistan. we moved back to los angeles again and 6 months later his sister was born.

its so interesting how modern medicine doesn't seem to count on emotional and psychological well being. It always comes up in debates about homebirthing or right to die. so what if you were alive and the baby was healthy after a traumatizing birth? so what if you were physically alive but brain dead while your hard earned money you wanted to leave to your children was drained to nothing? I'm not saying that hospital births are always traumatizing, or that brain dead people should die because they are a burden. I'm saying that why do people seem to fight the choice that other people want to make? why do they have problems with people making educated decisions? why don't some people understand that the risks we take are worth it when it comes to emotional and psychological well being?

when I chose to homebirth I knew its physical risks, but its not just homebirths that comes with physical risk. so do hospital births. when I contemplated the emotional well being of my family, having a homebirth was the answer. Physically I was well enough to have one as well. If I wasn't of course I would have gone to the hospital to give birth (and I am pretty sure 99% of mothers out there would agree). having the birth itself wasn't empowering for me, making the right decision for myself, my son, and my daughter was empowering.

rainbow brick roads

let me introduce myself. my name is mollie. I am wife to paul since 2006. I am a mama to two little ones... JakeZilla (born march/09) and MykaBean (born november/11)

I am an army wife.

my husband joined the army in 2006. we are currently stationed in ft wainwright, AK, and surviving our second deployment. he seemed to be a lifer but since we had kids his mind seems to be changing. i don't really mind either way. I love being an army wife. I've met great friends during our travels the army sends us on and even online through support websites. yep, a few bad apples give us a bad name but I've met more good ones than bad (and I've met a few WTFs are they thinking so I certainly don't act like they don't exist).

I am a gamer geek mama.

i play video games, card games (like mtg), and rpgs. in the late 1990's my then friend and future husband and i spent hours at a online computer center before online computer centers were cool (his dad and his friend owned/ran it. they were engineers that were ahead of their time). We played hours of command and conquer, duke nukem and mechwarrior 2. i played grups with some friends and loved it! i really want to get in to it but moving a lot sucks. :( i played EQ, WoW, tabula rasa (I liked that one a lot!), and vanguard off and on. I also played day of defeat which a lot of my WW2 weapon knowledge comes from (haha) and I currently play a lot of free cell while I stalk my husband online :P

I am a crafty mama.

i spin yarn on my ashford joy my husband 'allowed' me to buy earlier this year (lols). i knit and crochet also but my true love seems to be spinning so far. i met a lady who also weaves but i dare not start another hobby! lol. i also sew but a real novice at that.

I am a cloth diapering mama.

i wish i could say that i do it for the sake of the environment or the health of my baby's butt, but the truth is that I do it for the money. we already knew that we would have more than one so cloth diapers were an all around win. I've only spent 150 dollars on bean's girly covers and I need to spend about 50 dollars more on some flats but she will be diapered until potty training. whooohoooo!

I am a cooking mama.

we love to cook and eat. that is another thing I love love love about our military life. I've lived in colorado springs, colorado; fayetteville, north carolina; and fairbanks, alaska and I would say I miss the food as much as the people i've made friends with. I also love to cook from scratch and eat out too. I love doing thanksgiving, christmas, and new years. I look forward to it every year.

I am a breastfeeding mama.

I wish i could say that I breastfeed for the sake of lactivism, but the truth be told I do this for the money too (see a trend? lol). honestly though I am quite appalled by the resistance women encounter when it comes to breastfeeding. My mom breastfeed 3 of my siblings all past one year so I thought it was the norm. even my grandfather was a cheerleader and when I had problems nursing Jzilla, he supported me with a stinky papaya, which is considered a galactagogue in Okinawa. eventually I was able to EBF and learned the importance of support and education (i thought it would be as easy as sticking the nipple in the babies mouth back then too). I am active with my local LLL (local meaning, whenever I am in the redondo beach area). every woman should get 110% support if they want to breastfeed. I get so sad when women have to quit due to misinformation, not enough support or pressure from family (i think that's what makes me mad the most!). I currently tandem nurse Jzilla and Mbean.

I am an AP mama.

I don't necessarily advocate AP but our parenting decisions line up with most of what AP is all about.

I could go more in depth but I need to get ready to go shopping for food. LOL.